I'm just going to get mad

I'm just going to get mad.
I'm just going to get mad.
I'm just going to get mad.
I'm just going to get mad.
I'm just going to get mad.

Yes. I'm just going to get mad.
it's stuffing. it's suffocating. it's horrible experience. how long yet for me to get out?

don't lock me here if I can't work. let me go home. one more day I'm just going to get mad.

[Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

Robin Scherbatsky

"The future is scary but you just can't run back to the past because it's familiar." -- Robin
Robin said that to Ted, when Ted is thinking about going back with his ex-girlfriend, or friends. And this comedy, this line, touches me.

From places to places, I need time to suit the place, and the new me. Without fail, every time, I cry to a new place, end up, I cry to leave too! I am enjoying my life, of moving. Hence every time I feel suffocate, I know, it's time to leave.

This is my first real time job, and I dont know how long I can stay. Somehow, now this job became my comfort zone. I know there is somewhere I need to go every morning I wake up. Cute little, or big animal waiting for me, things to be done, spending time with them, tell them, oh I miss my boyfriend... They are, the reason I wake up every morning.

But these few days at home, I keep on running this in my mind. This sentence. Yes I admit, I am scare of changing now. I am cool now! I dont know changes will make me better or pull me down.

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L I F E

Yes. That's right. I'm thinking of this game and now it's in my iPhone.

How long ago was the first time this game came into our life? Way before secondary school I bet. Sims. And I don't know why is it call 'SIMS', until today, I did a little bit reading. Sim, is just from the word simulator.

Long long ago from the sims, we learn, as a kid. We have to go work, we choose our job, we have to make friends, we have to save money, we have to create bonding, we can choose to flirt with the other girl or just be friend, we need to have a family, we need to make love to have babies...... We have to plan our life. When I was 12, it was just a game. And now. It's such a freaking true life. How can a game be so cruel and tell us we are just leading a meaningless 'sims' life?

So that day we had a gathering with all the sisters. So sad we didn't take a picture. Well this shows that all of us are so same, we are not the camwhore type. That made us together. For more than a decade. Girls, don't know if you realize, this little lunch touches me a lot. Sie needs to talk on the phone in the middle of lunch, doing her job; Mei knew this place through her job; Fei is thinking of changing job, OL can't attend cause she needs to attend court on monday. We all moved on. But somehow I feel left out. I never really into the real world like all of you. Did I miss out anything? Grab me, maybe I'm just sinking.

And also, thanks for the boyfriends that came. I knew it took you all lots of effort.

---> Ackn: Kill, Tall, Ryan, XP.

And Dai Lou Kill, one word from you made me ponder for a few days. Yes, I am not young anymore. I, AM, NOT, YOUNG, A N Y M O R E. Don't like you.

(^o^) After all I'm still younger than you. Bleh..

Quote of the day

After all we are just living in the Sims City.